Why are celebrities so small when I meet them in person
Wow that video. I have pretty much been post transition for a few years now in Melbourne and you’re the only person on tumblr who posts trans related things I’ve continually checked on, I usually just sit back and chuckle at all these asshole things that go on tumblr community that you deal with but that Cayden cunt really rubbed me the wrong way. If I’m in a safe environment and I’m on coming out to everyone and being a trans rights crusader I’m according to this prick apparently being selfish? If I came out to everyone I know that doesn’t already know from the past) I know for sure that about 95% of them would not actually give a shit and would be hella supportive or even just accepting. I AM in a place and surrounded by people where if I chose to be out and proud I would have no fears for my safety but guess what buddy? I don’t fucking want to nor am I obligated to, because that part of my life caused me so much pain. I’m now in a place where I am mentally stable again, no longer in and out of the psych ward, no longer chronically abusing drugs as means to escape how I was born and the skewed life I experienced as a result, no longer fixated on whether I should end it all.
Yeah you’re right mate the world could do with more trans representation, and I COULD potentially and safely represent the trans community, but that’s a part of my life I fought hard for years to get past and would very much like to forget about it and move on with my life. I don’t go out of my way to deny being trans if it’s found out, but I would much rather forget about the entire fucking thing because now I’m starting to experience little growing shreds of happiness i’ve never felt in regards to my life and self perception. Things finally feel right for me. But oh riiight no I should be out and proud because I accessed, oh no sorry I mean in your words TOOK ADVANTAGE of the resources put into play by trans folk and allies before me…that these people fought for, for the express purpose of making it easier for us to get on with our lives… How is that hard for this dude to understand? It’s not about being ashamed of being trans or hiding from society, if someone finds out about or brings it up in conversation I’m fine and am capable of talking about it (reluctantly) about it and educate where people are misinformed. But it’s very rare for it to come up because at the end of the day now people see me as I’ve always seen myself – just some dude. And I would like it to stay that way. I just happen to be trans.
I would like to continue living in this semi happy place I’ve finally found without some little cunt who thinks he’s top shit telling me that I have a duty to make this debilitating brain/body disconnect known to the world. No thanks asshole, I’m happier than ever, fuck you and your shitty opinion you ignorant prick. Use your fucking brain and give it a real think why people might want to live their lives stealth.
Sorry about the massive rant, Nick. I usually don’t get involved in these things but that kid just really offended me and also I do not have a youtube account to comment on the video and I’m not good with navigating tumblr so I’ve just vented here. Keep soldiering on, you’ve got a good open mindset when it comes to this tumblr trans shit and that’s why you’re one of the only tumblrs I’ve consistently checked on. I feel a little better now I’ve gotten this off my chest, cheers bud
Sorry for the later than expected response. I got sidetracked after my shower and wanted to give this a well thought out response. I have been out of it for awhile now and it’s hard to focus like usual for minutes at a time.
You seem like the sort of person I would like. We are alike from what I know about you. I think where I am now in live, with my own mental comfort and this actual location I’m living in, I would be ok unless the wrong people found out. I know a lot of people and I would get a mixed bag of reactions. Some people wouldn’t want to talk to me and that would mostly go back to their religious beliefs and how they were raised. Most people I know are not violent and even if I did encounter someone violent and transphobic, good luck to them. I think people perceive me as gentle and nice but also know not to cross the line with me.
Clarification: When I said I would be ok being out, I don’t mean that life would be good. I would get teased. I would get asked a bunch of shit questions all the time. I would lose friends and people I know in my life. I would be constantly uncomfortable knowing that everyone knows something I consider extremely personal. My quality of life would decrease. My self esteem would go down. Social situations would be super uncomfortable. That’s not worth coming out for. Even if the bottom line is me feeling more comfortable being stealth and not wanting to come out for no particular reason, that’s fucking good enough. If someone wants to play the “But you need to help the trans community and pay it forward” card, they can fuck off. There’s already enough Aiden’s and Cayden’s lol “helping” the trans community and I want no association with them. There’s also plenty of people doing great work for the trans community. In a perfect world, I would be helping them. But this isn’t a perfect world and I need to put myself first. In a perfect world I would also be over in 3rd world countries helping out, I would be a vet so I could save the lives of injured animals, and I would be a teacher too so I could help educate other people. Cayden can bend over and shove that perfect world up his ass along with his terrible opinions and general attitude. So can his friends.
Right. I’m getting off topic.
I have no obligation to be out, you don’t either. Cayden is a, and I hate using this word, but a privileged twat. He’s some kid from Cali and attending uni, with a girlfriend, having fun smoking a lot of pot, got some friends, blahdy blah. He’s doing fine with his life. He is lucky enough to feel comfortable living out and socially, it doesn’t cause him consequences that are bad enough for him to stop for a millisecond and think “Hey, shit, this isn’t nice. Maybe being stealth is a better option.”
As I said at the start of this message, my head is very fluffy right now. Sorry if my response sounded dumb. It’s hard to think straight and be articulate. All in all, I completely understand where you are coming from and hope you can move past his bullshit soon. That video put me in a sour mood the other day too and that doesn’t happen a lot.
Science says I’m hot. Take that, girls who don’t like me back.